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Hidden Away

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AzialSilvara

Published: Mar 13, 2012

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My hidden heart wants to be found
Very few notice the disguise
Beneath the surface I hide my whole world
It can't be seen through wandering eyes

If people don't take time to show interest
Then they will never get inside
Deep within me lies my very best
But very few know of this side

Perhaps I just don't show enough
Because my heart offers so much
Maybe this is why my surface is so rough
People have used me as a crutch

Sometimes I'm too sensitive for my own good
I can't shut down this part of me
When I venture out I feel misunderstood
This hurts because I just want to be free

In the end I just want to be adored
Why must my lion's heart be hidden?
If I'm drawn out I might be restored
This world of mine shouldn't be forbidden

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