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Tired of being sad.Real men don't cry, they say
Well maybe their right but
I'm stuck with dry eyes

And maybe I'm not right for her
She still sits brokenhearted
And I'm all out of tries

But your life
is worth the price
of me losing my mind

So if you start
to see me smile
Its not a sign
that I'm over you

I see you running through my dreams again
(Happens every night now)
I toss and turn at what we could have been
(I'd stop if I knew how)
It just strikes a nerve, the thought of you out with another man
Holding his hand
And you may ask me what I smile for
Maybe you think I'm happier
With you gone.

I'm not smiling 'cause I'm happy, no
I'm smiling 'cause I'm t

Just In CaseYou can dig up a grave
If you think you can wake the past
But what's the point
You're just opening old wounds
It's like sitting by a bomb about to blast

For someone who claims no death wish
You could have fooled me
But I guess you already have
There's nothing about you I'll miss
Like how you can't see

And here comes another pointed finger
But who's really to blame
You can't bring yesterday back to life
If the dead have already lost the game
But you can revive the ghosts
Violent spirits with a grudge
How the hell will you survive again
Your point of view hasn't even budged
In a court where I've become the judge
Face it
You're screwed
While y

Rise From The AshesHold on
Hold on to me
Darling
Hold on
Hold on to me

Don't cut yourself with the jagged edge
Of cruel words and reprimands
Remember this
Your light shines brightest in the dark

When shadows leap and faith is gone
And fake obligations seem to have won
You've fallen
From grace and into the fire
But that doesn't have to be your funeral pyre

Darling
Look to me
I'm just as broken as you are
Let's set ourselves free
No need for anymore of these scars
Together we can rise from the ashes
We'll fight back
When insensitivity and anger clashes

It's not over until after you last breath
When you've faded into death
Keep in mind
You should never take yo

I want to be with youI sit here alone, thinking of you
about the time that we shared, about the things we used to do
But now I'm alone and it's starting to show
How did I get here? Do you already know?

I want to be with you... but it won't happen
I want to be with you... but I can't seem to take action
It always seems that you're just passing through..
So how can I be with you?...

Time goes by and still I'm here
Yet you start to go and disappear.
How do I get your attention or do you already know?
That I want you here.. I don't want you to go...

I want to be with you... but it won't happen
I want to be with you... but I can't seem to take action
It always seem

TerrifiedThere is agony all around me and I am terrified by my own self in the mirror, I fought with fire only to

Know to look down and see that I got burned turning thus into ashes, and I know my worries are now

Sly puffs scurrying about as they glide through the cracks of the floor, maybe in the end I will get lost

With them and sink into the lowest part of the earth, but then maybe angelic souls will be able to find

Me, and redeem me from my relevant streams of immorality, thus satisfying what I came here to find

Because in this world it is hard to tell…..

Broadway Specials: Ave Lillian

Verse I:

Vercelli’s pulling out his wand
Blinking too slowly when I see you’re gone.
I hear a voice screaming in my head
(Chaos I think we’ve got a problem)
Where does everybody go when they go?
What do you believe, there’s no way to know.
We hate so fast and we love so slow.
(Juggernaut I think we have a PROBLEM!)
Sit down and think about it
Still on the brink of doubt and
I finally click about it.
My world’s spinnin’

Chorus:

Ave Lillian.
Where did you go?
Where did you go?
How did you know to get out of a world gone mad?
Help me let go.
It’s my fault that she’s bleeding.
His words are misle

Invisible ManAs I make my way through everyday
I feel the empty presence
The stories I hear fill my head with fear
And a hatred of burning rage

Don't even try to make amends
Before your life of pity ends
Never wanted me, got no sympathy
I just can't take the pain

If there was a time when your evil mind
Wasn't filled with ice and stone
Well, now it's too late to disintegrate
So just leave me alone

Don't you dare think that I'll bend
To that stupid silly trend
No happy ending waits at the end of the lane
'Cause I just can't take the pain

I don't know where you went, but you didn't repent
For your sneaky dirty sins
Just a fear-powered coward, living in a

Something IndescribableCastaway, Runaway, I'm a Throwaway--that's what I say,
When my doubts and my fears, revived throughout years,
Completely surround, bring me to tears
Shackle me down, soil my crown
But I breathe in, breathe out and feel that sound:

Feel the beat of Hope (can you feel it?)
Coursing through your soul (can you feel it?)
Something indescribable’s in store; Tonight there’s something more

Daily life, I take in stride
Until the night when I run and hide
‘Cause some thoughts I believe, though they deceive
Completely surround, say I’m not redeemed
Shackle me down to hurt that I’ve found
So I breathe in, breathe out and

Hide-and-Seek LyricsFinally I have found you, my dear.
Lord knows how hard I’ve tried.
You no longer have to be afraid;
I am here by your side.

We have been through all of these twists and turns
feeling blind and unsure with each step.
But I know as long as we are together,
we’ll have strength to keep holding on.

Let us go forward, my dear, through
this game of hide-and-seek.
Although this maze is frightening,
I promise you we’ll be free.

The Mother of LossA boat called hope on a sea of fear.
It’s the mother of let down,
and that’s what brought me here.

I let go of your hopes.
I let go of mine.
I let go of all those
unbound by time.
If it’s gonna happen
It’s gonna happen either way.
Whether I want it to
or not.
Whether I can stand to stay.
I’m looking for something new.
Preferring what I know
the one closest to me,
the closest one to you.

I’m so far gone, I’m so far lost.
I lost control and I paid the cost.
I’ve been here too many times,
and I’ve said that before.
Dying for hope,

angels of agonywe are the angels of agony
brighten the sky
dim out the lights
fell into rivers
of our tears
we try to smile
when we walk our mile
dragging our feet through hell and earth

we feel the burden
in every way

even though we stay
we wish for a turn of day
we sing the anthem
of our pain
wings rip free and fade to black
cause now you know
we are the angels of agony

so perfect we see
trying to fly
if we black out the night
still just a sliver
of light eats me
we cry and scream
is it all just a dream
stuck in a coma an ever lasting sleep

we feel the burden
in every way

even though we stay
we wish for a turn of day
we sing the anthem
of our pain
wi

RAINING ON THE INSIDEVerse One:

You might think I'm crazy, when I say these words
Sometimes the world is hazy, and our cries they go unheard
Somehow I still find a way to force myself to smile
Each and every single day, I walk the endless mile...

Chorus:

And it's raining on the inside
Even though the sun will shine
And I tell you that I'm fine.
It's still raining on the inside
And I want for it to end
So my heart can finally mend
God I pray-every day...

Verse Two:

I hope you never see me, broken and alone
My life is never easy, but my love for you has grown
Do you know that you're my savior, I need you by my side
You can alter my behavior so I never have to

The Heart Believes[Verse]
Tell me I'm the one who keeps you awake.
Tell me I'm the one who's there when you make mistakes.
Tell me I'm the cloud you watch in the sky.
Tell me I'm the one who's there when you fall and cry.

Oh, I.. I can't believe this is happening,
I thought I had control of everything.
All the things I thought would be okay.
Are taking me back to yesterday.

Woah-oh...
Oh I wish that I could just move on..

(Chorus)
But darling, things just don't work out that way.
There's always a few hearts that can't be saved.
I wish that these stories were based on truth,
'cause I just can't believe I've fallen for you.

[Verse]
Tell me you're the one who

Why my friend...Thrashing, I'm faint
I just could not take this pain anymore
Holding onto that only hope

hope that you will come very soon
Where are you now?

I'm so lonely.

But you don't want, don't want to return.
Why my friend?

Angry at you-
I regret that I believed in you

Stay here my friend,
I don't want you to go
Come now, my friend

my friend.....

Miles AwayI am miles away
I’ve gone astray
Nobody will see me today

I’m a ghost passing by
Please do not cry
You’ve lost your chance to say goodbye

I am miles away
I’ve gone astray
Nobody wanted me to stay

Wilted and silent I remain
Covered all over with red stains
You thought I was insane

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Searching For SilenceToo many thoughts corrode the mind
They eat away at inner peace
Each and every one is so refined
Yet none of them bring sweet release

Answers are something we all seek
Most of the time we find more questions
Being overwhelmed doesn't mean you're weak
You've got to sift through all the suggestions

Lately I've had so much in my head
Very few things can help me calm down
There are times I wake up feeling dead
When you're already sinking it's easy to drown

I'm just trying to find a path that works
As I've got dreams I need to chase
Sometimes the lack of closure hurts
I can't spend much longer in this place

At the end of the day I'

So Far AwayThe evening brings my dreams to life
They always dance before my eyes
It hurts to see them come so close
Distance is something I despise

You are my biggest dream of all
But right now you're so far away
I'm always seeing your face everywhere
Someday I hope to make it stay

When I left my heart did not come with me
At all times I can feel it's pull
I can hear it's voice telling me to come
This dream of mine is beautiful

Late at night you walk into my dreams
Sometimes I'm not sure I'm asleep
Because it all feels real to me
There are times I'll actually weep

Being far away just feels so wrong
Inside I know I'm out of place
In ti

Forever And AlwaysLove transcends the physical
Though it isn't quite the same
But it's something you'll always have
Upon our hearts we've carved your name

You left this world far too soon
You'll never be a memory
We know that you'll always be here
Even if our eyes cannot see

As parents we want the best for you
So we hope you're happy where you are
Late at night when we look at the sky
It's as if we see you in each star

The pain won't ever leave for good
For you we'll try our best to smile
As we know you hate to see us cry
Know that we'll see you in a while

Someday we shall see you again
And our family will be complete
Our love for you is et

Nice Guys Finish LastIt's difficult to hear that you're naive
Because your perspective is old fashioned
And it hurts to hear you're out of touch
Just because you want something real

All I've ever wanted is to have someone
Somebody to share the rest of my life with
But apparently nice guys finish last
I'm just so tired of hearing that shit

I don't get why giving everything is strange
I've never been able to give any less
Which is why I've been so careful with my heart
But apparently I can't see on my own

My very soul aches just to love and love
If I can't then I don't want to live
Living life without love would be empty
Without it I would cease to e

Modern Day DegenerationThis world has spun out of control
These days boys are seen as men
How they act is viewed as normal
What happened to the gentlemen

Women have become sexual objects
Media portrayal disgusts me
Yet modern day sheep fall into line
Instead of opening their eyes to see

Respect is so hard to find these days
It's hard to be seen as a person
Women have to put up with this bullshit
They are beacons for male perversion

Hormones are a very natural thing
But this doesn't excuse the lack of respect
Why have men degenerated into pigs
I wonder what women have come to expect

The world I live in is beyond fucked up
Especially in regards to se

Invisible MiseryMy parents have not noticed
But I've got a super power
There are times I'm invisible
And it seems nobody sees me

It's a power I could do without
All I want is to be noticed
The only time I can be found
Is when something is wrong

This also goes for my actions
They never seem to see the good
Everybody else is perfect
While I seem to be a burden

Though they'll wear masks for others
Pretending that I'm so adored
Very few see beneath the curtains
Or see the scars upon my heart

Love is all I've ever wanted
I don't know why I've had to try
Though I have given it my best
If only my best was enough

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Suicidal Dream

by ~AzialSilvara, Feb 4, 2012, 4:06:59 AM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Songs & Lyrics

I'm fading in and out
Consumed by pain and doubt
I never thought it'd come to this
I guess I'll go without

Now I'm coming undone
The collapse has just begun
If you don't want to be buried
Then I suggest you start to run

I'd feel so much better
Had we gone on forever
All I wanted was reality born of dreams
But it seems that cannot be
And these facts all torture me
Now I've pushed everyone away
So they don't have to hear my screams

Somehow I'm still alive
After trying not to survive
Lately fate hasn't liked me
The end of life just won't arrive

I'm mocked by every breath I take
By the very fact I'm awake
Though I know I cannot end it
It's a desire I just can't shake

I'd feel so much better
Had we gone on forever
All I wanted was reality born of dreams
But it seems that cannot be
And these facts all torture me
Now I've pushed everyone away
So they don't have to hear my screams

These feelings won't go disappear
Though you might not be near
Unlike pain love stays forever
Right now it's all that's crystal clear

Suicidal Dreamby ~AzialSilvara

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Songs & Lyrics

I wound up writing a song for the first time in quite a while, though I've got nothing to say about this one. It's too personal.

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~poeticflow24 Feb 5, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

It's bad that it's so good but so sad at the same time. I think you did an amazing job capturing the emotions inside the words you wrote. This is amazing.

~AzialSilvara Feb 6, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

Why thank you..

!youdeservethetruth Feb 5, 2012

Good Lord!.. There is so much pain.

"I'd feel so much better
Had we gone on forever"
I am absolutely sure that there was some kind of misunderstanding... try to make her understand what's in your mind.. once is clear that she can speak your "language".. she'll understand -FOR SURE!

"Unlike pain love stays forever
Right now it's all that's crystal clear"
When you have found the only one who completes you everything can be understood and worth fighting for.

I am sure you two will find comfort with your love and these words. Distand relationships as you described in previous poems need lots of understanding, complicity and caring....... everything hapens at the right time.. and never before. This is the key for successful relationships - in my humble opinion.
Sometimes, the one we love wishes to comfort our loneliness and pains.. but patient and understanding are the best way to get whole home. The only way, I'd say.

I wish you two the best.

~AzialSilvara Feb 6, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

You're a sweetheart you know.. thank you for the kind words.

Things will almost always work out, for better or worse. Things have turned out better then I thought they would, but it won't always be so in this life. I'm thankful that I don't have to feel these things anymore, and that the cord to these emotions has been cut for the moment.

!youdeservethetruth Feb 7, 2012

Oops!..

you're very welcome!

no it won't.. and thank god it won't.. there will be hard moments, of course.. every relationships (friends.. family....) have to face its hard moments. It is one of the best challanges in relationships.. in life. Being ourselves, accept the other the way they are without wanting (not even lightly thinking) to change their personality.. their old habits, whatever.. that would kill all possibilities of reconciliation. I think.
RESPECT make miracles.. i believe so. Respect builds a solid fortress where no one else gets in. This is why i love bricks=words SO MUCH.
I'm HAPPY to know that you don't have to feel it anymore.

For the moment??.. i'd rather know that would have been forever. But i'm SURE it'll be forever.

Yesterday my best friend told me: "think happy thoughts!" ..

I think i can tell you the same words.. once my best friend is the most wise and sensitive person i've ever met.. you may keep these same words in your heart.. if it'll ring in your mind.

And don't forget .. to smile!
i AM smiling

~AzialSilvara Feb 7, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

There are always difficult times, in any relationship. It's a given fact. As humans it's impossible for us to get along perfectly. We create conflict and chaos without even trying. But people need to work through it, and put effort into their relationships. People don't seem to understand that as well anymore, which is why the divorce rate is so high.

Respect, communication, patience.. there are many things needed in any kind of relationship. It's just how it is.

And yeah, I suppose you're right.

~soultrauma Feb 4, 2012 Hobbyist Artist

exactly

~AzialSilvara Feb 6, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

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