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So Long GoodbyeMourning eyes watched blackened skies
Cold rain falls like black ink
Avoid bleak truth for sweetened lies
Sometimes it hurts to think
You're moving on but have not moved
Gray memories act as chains
The strangling bonds must be removed
Dead skin still shows the stains
Cut through the corpse and move along
Why cling to something dead
Break through the death you've lived so long
Let go of words unsaid
Do not forget the bonds that tied you
But don't bring them back to life
There are many eyes you could look through
Each perspective wields a knife
Your wandering mind gave birth to lies
You thought it might survive
Stare down the body with warm eyes
In the end you're still alive
Synthetic EmotionsAll that I feel has been made up of shards
Broken pieces of things I once knew
These unnatural signals now mess with my head
What was once red has now become blue
Everything that I see doesn't seem to be real
Though it looks right its just not the same
Maybe I'm just asleep and its all just a dream
Or did I grab something I couldn't tame
Artificial emotions have me coming undone
When I breathe all the air tastes like plastic
All the colors seem off and things just don't feel right
Every voice in my head sounds sarcastic
Is this some strange state I've somehow stitched together
Fragile thoughts now refuse to connect
Have I been blind so long I can no longer see
Will my own heart I have to dissect
If it all comes together I hope things will change
As I'd hate to live like a machine
Being numb to it all doesn't feel go for long
This blank state I could not have foreseen
I Dream Of Never Waking UpDepressing thoughts just weigh me down
All hope I've left behind
Beneath the surface I may drown
Yet I don't seem to mind
It seems we've all been born to die
We live to fade away
Eternal rest we can't deny
Dark facts we must obey
Into the depths I dive each night
Each day feels like a dream
Inside the tunnel things look bright
Things aren't quite what they seem
The sun may rise but I don't care
Maybe I've gone and died
This wasted breath I'll never share
God knows I've never tried
But in the end I'm still not sure
Why do I carry on
Each empty day is pure torture
My will to live is gone
Beneath The Weeping WillowThis willow stands beside a lake
A lake of wasted tears
The man beneath it may not wake
He's known this place for years
Those wasted teardrops gave it life
This valley he calls pain
A gloomy land that lives on strife
Each fresh wound brings the rain
The weeping willow cries for him
He won't cry for himself
Nostalgic light has grown so dim
His life sits on the shelf
This wasteland is his hiding place
A place that is his own
His isolation saving grace
Within it he lies prone
Beneath the willow this man dreams
He lives without a care
No one can hear his silent screams
This life is his nightmare
I Don't Have To Pick YouYou're a beautiful flower that much I can see
But no rule says I must pick you
Guard your heart as you've got no guarantee
Maybe I'll choose to look right on through
Its an uncertain world that you've grown up in
Sometimes feelings can change like the weather
Certain words I could say would leave scars within
I could walk away as light as a feather
An unfair wind might just blow you away
If you're smart you'll hold on for dear life
You shouldn't be so hasty with the words that you say
As rejection cuts deep like a knife
Don't bet all of your chips on an uncertain thing
If you lose you'll lose all that you've spent
I've got nothing to say that will help sooth the sting
Please don't beg I've just said what I meant
Maybe its not how you thought things would end
Deep inside you may hurt for a while
On an one sided love you should never depend
Every step you take feels like a mile
A Beast Named LustSudden sensations light the match
Bright fires burn inside
A storm is stirring in your head
From yourself you can't hide
A beast named lust runs through your head
Hot thoughts it leaves behind
Primal desires run through your skin
These wants may leave you blind
This burning lust shall never leave
Its never far away
Beneath the depths it sits and waits
Your warm flesh just wants to play
Will you fight it or will it run loose
The animal would run wild
If want it it could be of use
Active hormones get you riled
Its a beast that sleeps within your chest
And it knows you want it bad
Are you the master or are you the chained
Dormant lust can drive you mad
Eye Of The StormAn exhausted runner falls at last
Vicious winds rage all around
His entire life the storm has trashed
Yet he doesn't make a sound
He's been running through a dream so dark
Hoping there might be a light
In his head reality is quite stark
He held on with all his might
But he just couldn't win against a storm
It tore everything apart
Every fleeting memory feels so warm
If he's strong he could restart
As he's lying there within the eye
Hunting winds eradicate
When he comes around he'll wonder why
All his dreams storms decimate
Deep within the eye he will not be harmed
Its a cruel twist of fate
While asleep he cannot be alarmed
When he wakes it'll be too late
Sick Or SaneEverything I built up slowly crumbles away
All the lights in my head have gone out
The poison within numbs my heart to the pain
A tired voice in my head starts to shout
But it just doesn't matter how loud I may scream
After all its all locked in my head
Am I fading away just like all of my dreams
Do I still breathe or am I long dead
Now my tired hands are trembling as I try to push through
Why I'm trying I no longer know
Everything I held dear is now wasting away
Should I hold on or should I let go
Am I sick in the head or is this just me
Honestly I can't tell anymore
What I do understand is that somethings not right
How did these broken thoughts pierce my core
Now I'm trying to crawl my way through the debris
I've been searching these ruins for myself
An emotional earthquake has torn me apart
I just hope I'll escape with my health
Not Strong EnoughThese broken pieces just won't fit
My heart's just like a mirror
Shattered reflections show the pit
A heartache so severe
This empty space draws me to you
The black diamond with no sheen
Your phantom love was never true
My truth remains unseen
Inside my heart I see the light
But this warmth I can't convey
Your blackened door I've painted white
I'm not strong enough to stay away
To you this anguished heart is chained
But not by destiny
By bloody deeds freedom is gained
Tired eyes can finally see
You couldn't stand a love so pure
A world you couldn't view
My wavering grasp became secure
The looking glass broke you
Make it BeautifulSome say that writers have a gift
To write about the mundane.
To make it beautiful; set thoughts adrift.
But if you'll listen, let me explain
That making beauty is not great;
Especially beauty from pain and hate.
Poets turn love into what it's not;
A devouring monster or sweet peace,
What is love truly? Your scribbled ink-knot?
Reading that sadness grants no release,
And happiness is always so short;
Happiness is many poets' final resort.
Are we the doomed generation?
So many of us are liars by trade
Can the few poets give an explanation,
Or are we also just liars, unswayed?
Poets fill hearts with a burning desire
To experience passionate things
Yet a poet might be a glamorous liar
Or just able to feel awe for all life brings;
What I say is probably slander
Against the poets that write with candour.
Candles are RomanticDo you remember the flickering flame
That with virgin fingertips I tried to tame?
And how we laughed when it caressed my skin,
Heated my flesh in a game I wouldn't win?
'Your lips are much softer than I thought '
Hurry, pull away; before we're caught.
'I'm sorry, I just felt like kissing '
I need to go back, Pretty Boy knows I'm missing.
We stuck our fingers together with white wax
The excess escaped in cooling liquid tracks
I'll meet your eyes; ignore the guilt in mine
Since you ask, my dear: I'm fine, I'm fine.
Now Tell Me How To Let You GoSmoke still lingers on your leather jacket,
but the smell of you is all gone.
I bring it in closer to keep the warmth in,
and the wet out.
With every rain drop that hits me,
a part of you washes away.
My shoes pitter patter,
side by side across the concrete.
If I didn't know that,
I would say that it was you trying to stop me.
Stop me from walking away from here,
away from you forever
A touch of ice brushes past my face,
and you can tell that I've been crying.
What should feel like ices,
feels like fire.
But there's only the night,
leaving me alone with myself.
If I try hard enough,
everything's alive again.
The flowers are blooming,
the tress full of colors.
you're warmth makes me smile.
Winter is on its way,
for the ground is cold.
The trees are black and white,
colorless and dead.
This leather jacket is what's left of you,
and even that is falling apart.
My lips form a smile,
for you've been with me all along.
No matter ho
from stardust to -let's dance. you and me, and all the lonely people
like it's the eve of the revolution that's about to change the world,
and all you can hear is the song of captivity.
we can touch the ground and we can touch the sky,
and perhaps the wind has never felt so free, but dancing -
oh, we'll dance in the space in-between.
and they'll sing as we waltz across infinity, about you, and about me,
because nothing makes sense,
and all the world's gone to pieces.
time is short, and short is the time,
tomorrow is coming.
we may be in the gutter -
maybe we're all in the gutter -
but we'll be looking at the stars.
She was a riverShe was a river
Clear and pure
Moving through life gracefully
So strong, and sure
She smiled constantly
Nothing muddling her mind
and when you needed someone most
She was the easiest to find
Filled with life and beauty
So colorful, moving to her own beat
Watching her dance through life so beautifully
And keeping her grace so discrete
Reflected on her pretty river face
Flowing through life so passionately
No one could keep up with her pace
Love was her motivation
Love was her drive
Love was her weakness
Love was her final dive
Love was her everything
And love was her everywhere
Without love? Impossible...Right?
Because, without it, she'd be nowhere
Love love everywhere
But not a drop a drink
When it seemed love had her at her best
Was when she began to sink
Water so easily tainted
Even when waters so wise
Maybe if people thought before speaking
She wouldn't have believed so many lies
Lies about how to be happy
Lies about who she could be
Lies about love made her say to herself
'Red's for Passion'"Hearts? Oh, I know that game
I'll play it with all, 'cause it's the same,"
Now the head gains a cunning tilt
And the voice takes on a twisting lilt.
"I bet you'd stick with a diamond or spade
But for you to hit switches I will persuade,
Why, just look at all the love I've made!"
"Gamble a little, throw down your chips
Win the chance of curving her lips."
But tired eyes grow yet sad;
They've seen how love makes them mad.
"Can't say I ever expected my heart to be won
Though the trap was laid and the wheel spun
Doesn't matter now; what's done is done."
"Thought I had not blood, but ink
But blood I'd had; gone in a blink."
Eyes are too tired for neon and gold,
And for the games they once controlled.
"What's up next, black or red?
Red's for passion and black's for dread
Now buy some coins with the ink I bled."
EyesNo one just has blue eyes.
They have eyes that glitter like foreign waters.
Eyes flecked with the grey of a gathering storm.
Eyes like a child's, full of brightness.
Eyes like the ocean, fathomless and deep.
Eyes of sky, never ending.
No one just has green eyes.
They have eyes like the grasses of a summer field.
Eyes streaked with the dappled light on a forest floor.
Eyes like precious gems, throwing shards of light.
Eyes like apples, round and lush.
Eyes of a cat, wise and dangerous.
No one just has brown eyes.
They have eyes like fat, glossy November conkers.
Eyes with the warm, sugary brown of coffee.
Eyes like chocolate icing, reminding of home.
Eyes like tree trunks, detailed and ageless.
Eyes of earth, unshakable.
No one just has eyes. They have windows.
The Ghosts Of Days Gone ByI've been searching for a while
For those things that I once knew
Racing through blurred memories
Missing pieces hide the view
Its been so long since I've looked back
Faint flames have long since died
These fragile thoughts I've kept intact
My ghosts won't be denied
A strange sensation leads me on
Through doors I've left for dead
Forgotten feelings draw me in
Lost dreams locked in my head
The matching keys rusted away
I now look back with shame
Millions of chances gone to waste
Alone I take the blame
This desperate search I choose to end
My heart now says goodbye
I've found no way to resurrect
The ghosts of days gone by
[transmissions of a dead girl]i am the
moon: i am
the silver pill
to weigh down
into leaden eyes--
i am the
of the dark.
the stars are
all dead in their
you'll be safe, dear,
as i am the moon,
with all of your
(i am good bye and yet,
you think only of romantic
i am the moon.
i am the crescent
and dead altogether,
i still die.
All Here For A ReasonI turned onto a shady, well-manicured driveway that, for all intents and purposes, looked harmless enough. Maple trees lined both sides of the street, and a parade of Canadian geese marched across the road to a wide duck pond with a flamboyant fountain. There were blooming crepe myrtles and rose-of-sharons, and as I grew closer to my destination, neatly trimmed gardens with neatly trimmed bushes.
I stopped to let the geese pass. They looked at me; one hissed. I honked my horn and moved around them.
At the end of the road sat a collection of grayish buildings and a number of signs directing me to the appropriate parking lot. "Welcome to Ten Creeks Hospital," said one of them. "Please enjoy your stay." I parked in the visitor's lot. Surely I wouldn't be staying.
I was shaking when I got out of my car. I had spent the morning getting high. One foot in front of the other, flip-flop noises, hot sidewalk. Mulberry and magnolia trees, freshly shaved grass. A bench and pan for smokers. A set o
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